schoolgrrl's Blog

so some of you know ive tryed dancing IE topless. while dancing ive made a new friend Cami. Cami is so cute shes High Yellow .. i know rude but she says it about herself soft green eyes she colors her hair this wild red color and well shes hot hot hot .. she and myself have been hanging out going to eat and she has slept over past two nights ..if you didnt notice i havent been here. well ive thought of kissing her and telling her shes cute. but shes never said she was bi!!!! Dammit and honestly as dirty as i am I fear rejection and im shy wild right!?!?!
so today at work she brings me flowers and i tell her shes my new bestie and l love her to bits and i go and dance .. well she leaves and dosnt say goodbye to me and we had plans tonight.. so this bitch Tasha tells me how i hurt Cami's feelings that she likes me and how im rude. I am so freaked out ive called her and told her i like her and she wont call me back.. ive told her that i didnt know shes bi and i reaaaaly like her and no calls back .. i want to cry i hurt her feelings and i cant get her to call me back or text me or anything waaahhhhhh. and sadly this isnt the first person i have had this issue with .. ppl have to look me in the eye and say I LIKE you and want to date you ..or i think you really are just being nice

well I love candles in glass huge heavy candles... and when the wick is no longer useable i place them in a pot with simmering water.. so i woke up this am early started my pan Candle and got in the shower .. i was so warm and comfie after my shower i layed on the bed..and fell asleep all warm and comfie ..till i started coughing .. ahh the watter evaporated and the glass shattered and the house was full of smoke ... yep im smart  Doubt me not haha

this started years ago .. I started using drugs really early .. it went hand and hand with the abuse i suffered as a child. *if your here for sexy stories not going on here* it started with weed and drinking and went to shrooms and Acid  in JR High ..then in highschool much harder drugs. I would sit in my room in the dark and look in the mirror while i would trip... this is a bad idea..to add to this as a small child i had a close connection to my higher power ppl told me I had god given gifts ..i was empatic and could Heal.. this out of my mothers mouth and aunts. I feel when i started using the heavier drugs the mirrors in the dark opened a doorway to me. and there were some bad times when spooky things happend. but things got better...i reached a bottom and got sober. whoooie teen soberity. well to this day when im having evil thoughts if a glance in a mirror in the dark i catch a glance of him .. i pray for this to end .. and when im fighting it the hardest things happen. Last year i was in my bathtub and a brush flew off the sink and hit me .. in a Large bathroom. i see black masses on my celing and try to ignore them. my gf told me the other day sometimes she sees like dark clouds in my house....i never told anyone about that .. i dont know what to do ..